Suffering in silence

Suffering in silence.

It's rough in any context really.  You could be sick, or fighting an illness, living in pain from an injury, depression, anxiety, sadness, etc.

This is not a good thing, especially if you do not have to. Myself just like many others I know I am one who tends to do my best to suffer in silence.  An illness yet to be diagnosed with symptoms that are just awful but with medicine can be treated are a savior. 

Some who are bullied usually keep things in to themselves until it becomes too much.  And even trying to talk to someone isn't enough release for the amount of energy that has been stored.

Persons with pain or any kind of physical injury..the hardest part is waiting.  It is true time (with treatment) does heal all wounds but it's the damn TIME that is the hardest to bear.  Some times don't you just wish you could skip ahead in time (like in a video game) and be all better?

Another question is WHY??  Why do we choose to suffer in silence?

For myself, there are more things that I consider worse than my problems and I would rather try to help others if I could.  My problem isn't going anywhere and some times I really REALLY don't like the negative kind of attention that brings (to myself or anyone).  On occasion I do mention it, because just like others a few words of encouragement does lift the heart, and that really helps.


(my son Hunter at 6 months old)

Do your best to smile when you can.  Smiling and laughter are a fantastic medicine.  As hard as it sometimes can be.  Even a small one helps in amazing ways.  Besides Smiles are contagious.

What do you do to get out of a funk? Or what do you do to get yourself out of something rather difficult?

New NHL Conference Alignment

We have time to get comfy with this...but here is the New NHL Conference alignment as voted this Monday evening.

CONFERENCE A	CONFERENCE B
CONFERENCE C	CONFERENCE D

I'm personally not sold on this so much.  Conference C geographically does not make much sense to me (I figured they were going to go with that, but I was obviously wrong).  I can't say I don't like Conference D because...I do.

New Holiday theme for the blog

I'm trying out a new holiday theme for the blog.

I think it turned out nicely.

How do you like it???

That didn't take long...new job for Bruce Boudreau

His new job....to a warmer climate

72 hours...yep that is all it took.  72 hours and Coach Boudreau has a new job as the new head coach of the Anaheim Ducks. (don't we all wish we could get a job that fast after losing a previous one??)

On a personal side, I'm rather shocked about this since Coach Randy Carlyle (whom Boudreau is replacing) had signed an extension on his contract to 2014.  But I guess they (the Ducks Organization) wanted a new system, just like the Capitals.  They made the announcement at 2am this morning (EST).

In an interview with the Washington Post, Boudreau said that when he talked to GM McPhee he told him he knew he was "doing what he had to do". 

For a quote about the Ducks, the new coach said, "It's time for the Ducks to get their asses out of their heads."

I'll miss ya Gabby, best of luck out west.

Do you have any thoughts on this? Good, bad or indifferent?

Bullying is for LOSERS!

Bullying is for LOSERS!

Sadly another young girl took her own life in Canada due to being bullied.  We need to make this STOP.

The video above is to the point.

If you see it happening (or are even a bully yourself) it is never too late to do something to make it stop.

Capitals name a new head coach

Today is another chapter ending and beginning in the history of the Washington Capitals. 
Dale Hunter was named as the 15th head coach in the Capitals team history replacing Bruce Boudreau. 

I'm personally of two minds on this.  I've been a Boudreau supporter all along and I really like him.  However I do agree that he lost the 'locker room' and when that happens it's over.  Then it's just a matter of time.

I'm interested to see how a 'players' coach (Dale Hunter) does in the Caps locker room.  Also this is his first NHL coaching job.  He's been coaching the OHL London Knights for over 10 years.  He is going to either sink or swim in the NHL as a coach, I'm hoping this move works.

The Caps were doing so well to start the season off and they WERE the team to beat and they have recently become the easy win for teams (even the ones that we are supposed to win against). 

Once a Caps fan ALWAYS a Caps fan, I'm going no where.  But slowly they are making it difficult to be a fan again.

My answer: "None of your business"

I'm so very thankful that the elections are finally over.

We had people calling on the phones and even a few people that knocked on our door too.  This year I was really shocked that on the phone and in person, these people actually had the nerve to ask me who I was voting for.  UH....hello?!?!  There is a reason the voting process in anonymous.   To which each time I was asked I just said  that is "none of your business".  I even shot the guy a dirty look when he asked me to my face.  How ballsy is that??  Even though I did vote for who he was representing...I still don't feel comfortable sharing that information, especially with people I do not know.

Now if you don't mind sharing that info, that is great.  More power to you.  I have my own political opinions and I certainly take others opinions into consideration but I make up my own mind and I don't impose my views on others.  Especially if it is not asked for.  If I want information on any candidate for an election, I look it up myself and compare then make my choice.  No amount of debating from supporters, phone calls, door to door visits will change my mind once it is made.

I'm not the type of person that particularly likes to debate, but if it is something I feel strongly about I will defend my view point.  However, I will not be offended of others feel differently.  I just don't understand those who cannot see that.

Have any of you come across those kinds of campaigns this year??  Did they ask you too??  If so, what did you say?

Saying one thing and doing another....Grrr.

I have a pretty long fuse when it comes to many things.  But one thing that cuts my fuse to practically nothing is when people say one thing and either do another or do opposite what ever they said they would do.

When someone (and I'm not saying myself) has had a dream of something in their life.  And they count on others to be there for them for the support they so desperately need to make their dream a reality and then they are crushed down by the ones they need.  That just completely pisses me off.

I completely understand that sometimes circumstances change and such.  But those who promise one thing should at least try to do what they can or make it right with the person.  Not crush their hopes.  Or at least work to compromise and not cheapen the experience just to accommodate their needs (when it's not about them).

Maybe I'm just venting...well I know I am.  But how would you react?  Would you just cut the person out all together?  Would you confront them (a little harder, especially if it's family)?  Just ignore it (which is extremely difficult) and hope your dream is not completely ruined? 

There is no easy way on this.  I'm doing what I can to help, I just hope it is enough.

Communication - Can you hear me now??

"Can you hear me now?  No??...too bad."

Isn't that what you wanna say to some people when you are trying to talk to them.  It's funny because when you ask people something like that they usually answer you.  And if the answer is no...uh they must've been able to hear you because they answered you. DUH.

Interesting is communication between husband and wife or boyfriend and girlfriend or any committed relationship.  Communication and its effectiveness all depends on mood.  If you're already in an agitated state then the warning lights should go off.  This is where the 'pushing of buttons' comes into play.  When in a normal mood or even better yet a good mood, communication is so easy and effortless.  But anything other than that everything takes some work.

Patience also comes into play.  When you are the one who is agitated it's very easy to lose all patience and not look at things from any other perspective than your own.  It is difficult to say the least.

Arguments are forms of communication. However they usually involve RAW emotions and lead to much worse things.  Arguments are not a win/lose kind of thing.  A lot of folks think "oh, I won that argument"...well you really don't win; you just were able to get out your perspective of what you were talking about you are finished with what you had to say on it.  The other person was nice enough to either understand or even just let you finish venting 'at their expense".  We are all the person who wants to "win" the situation but feel bad because usually the other person either looks like they have become the 'punching bag' or they feel bad because we have made them to feel that they are the reason we feel awful in the first place (which is usually not the story to begin with).

There are many circumstances in which this does and does not apply don't get me wrong.  Some time there are 2 people who are just out to win the argument and that is when people end up going to bed angry, break up, etc.

It's hard to see things from the outside in when you are in the middle of it.  Sometimes you do catch your breath but most of the time you don't.  IF  you in fact do, remember a short time after the battle of words is over you usually forget what it was about anyways.

Once you've said your piece, let it go.  Move on.  Don't fester with it, unless you like to make others feel awful or you are into fighting.  You'll find yourself more alone than you care to be.

And to the peace makers hang in there...it's all worth it in the end.

Fear of doctors - from childhood to adulthood

When we are kids we really don't like doctors because they have "SHOTS" but they have really cool lollipops.  And really young we associate doctors with pain.  So we really don't like them at all and usually are afraid of them.
I've noticed more lately (especially in myself) that the fear of doctors does transfer from childhood to adulthood, but it changes (or adapts). 

As an adult we are not 'afraid' of the doctor...but we are fearful of what they are going to say.  It's the "BAD NEWS" that we don't want to hear.  And we are so relieved and happy when we get good news.  It's the bad stuff that makes us fearful.  The shots or blood work (usually/for most of adults) doesn't really bother us any more. 

I feel bad for those doctors who have to give bad news and how they must feel having to deliver it.  I'm sure they are just as afraid (sometimes) to give us that information.  But must feel even worse if they can't help us or if they cannot solve the problem immediately for us.  I commend them on being there for us and being educated enough to figure things out and helping us in a time of need.  Sometimes it's just as hard to receive as it is to deliver.

Just remember that next time you get upset at the doctor (or remember it after the fact) if you can.  Remember also the billing people have nothing to do with the doctors themselves...that is all coding and their staff there. LOL.  So billing is an entirely different can of worms.  HAHAHA

Wanna be a Whale or a Mermaid???

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

"Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I'd rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn't enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.
Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: "How amazing am I ?! "

(The girl on the picture is French model Tara Lynn)

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huge THANKS to Andrea Neuman who posted this for me to see and share with you all.

Stress, a way to approach it

 My friend Renee kindly reminded me of this:

 

A young lady confidently walked around the room while leading and explaining stress management to an audience; with a raised glass of water, and everyone knew she was going to ask the ultimate question, 'half empty or half full?'.....

She fooled them all...
"How heavy is this glass of water?", she inquired with a smile.
... Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. To 20 oz.

She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter.

It depends on how long I hold it.

If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem.

If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm.

If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance.

In each case it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."

She continued, "and that's the way it is with stress. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on."

"As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again.

When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden - holding stress longer and better each time practiced.

So, as early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down.

Don't carry them through the evening and into the night...
Pick them up tomorrow.

Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment.

Relax, pick them up later
After you've rested.

Life is short.

Enjoy it and the now 'supposed' stress that you've conquered!"
1. Accept the fact that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue!

2. Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.

3. Always read stuff that will make you look good if you die in the middle of it.

4. Drive carefully... It's not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker..

5. If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague

6. If you lend someone $20 and never see that person again, it was probably worth it..

7. It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a warning to others.

8. Never buy a car you can't push.

9. Never put both feet in your mouth at the same time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.

10. Nobody cares if you can't dance well.
Just get up and dance..

11. Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the bird, sleep late..

12. The second mouse gets the cheese.

13. When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

14. Birthdays are good for you.
The more you have,
The longer you live.

15. You may be only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person.

16. Some mistakes are too much fun to make only once.

17. We could learn a lot from crayons.
Some are sharp, some are pretty and
Some are dull. Some have weird
Names and all are different colors,
But they all
Have to live in the same box.

18. A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour..

19. Have an awesome day and know that someone
Thought about you today.

20. It was me, your friend!

Save the earth -- It's the only planet with chocolate!

Thinking about having kids...try this 11 step program (funny)

Too freaking funny not to share....


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Contemplating having kids?  Well try this 11 step program to see if you are ready for the challenge of being a parent.


Lesson 1
1. Go to the grocery store.
2. Arrange to have your salary paid directly to their head office.
3. Go home.
4. Pick up the newspaper.
5. Read it for the last time.

Lesson 2
Before you finally go ahead and have children, find a couple who already are parents and berate them about their.
1. Methods of discipline.
2. Lack of patience.
3. Appallingly low tolerance levels.
4. Allowing their children to run wild.
5. Suggest ways in which they might improve their child's breast feeding, sleep habits, toilet training, table manners, and overall behavior. Enjoy it because it will be the last time in your life you will have all the answers.

Lesson 3
A really good way to discover how the nights might feel.
1. Get home from work and immediately begin walking around the living room from 5PM to 10PM carrying a wet bag weighing approximately 8-12 pounds, with a radio turned to static (or some other obnoxious sound) playing loudly. (Eat cold food with one hand for dinner)
2. At 10PM, put the bag gently down, set the alarm for midnight, and go to sleep.
3. Get up at 12 and walk around the living room again, with the bag, until 1AM.
4. Set the alarm for 3AM.
5. As you can't get back to sleep, get up at 2AM and make a drink and watch an infomercial.
6. Go to bed at 2:45AM.
7. Get up at 3AM when the alarm goes off.
8. Sing songs quietly in the dark until 4AM.
9. Get up. Make breakfast. Get ready for work and go to work (work hard and be productive)

Repeat steps 1-9 each night. Keep this up for 3-5 years. Look cheerful and together.

Lesson 4
Can you stand the mess children make? To find out.
1. Smear peanut butter onto the sofa and jam onto the curtains.
2. Hide a piece of raw chicken behind the stereo and leave it there all summer.
3. Stick your fingers in the flower bed.
4. Then rub them on the clean walls.
5. Take your favourite book, photo album, etc. Wreck it.
6. Spill milk on your new pillows. Cover the stains with crayons. How does that look?

Lesson 5
Dressing small children is not as easy as it seems.
1. Buy an octopus and a small bag made out of loose mesh.
2. Attempt to put the octopus into the bag so that none of the arms hang out.

Time allowed for this - all morning.

Lesson 6
Forget the BMW and buy a mini-van/SUV. And don't think that you can leave it out in the driveway spotless and shining. Family cars don't look like that.
1. Buy a chocolate ice cream cone and put it in the glove compartment. Leave it there.
2. Get a dime. Stick it in the CD player.
3. Take a family size package of chocolate cookies. Mash them into the back seat. Sprinkle cheerios all over the floor, then smash them with your foot.
4. Run a garden rake along both sides of the car.

Lesson 7
Go to the local grocery store. Take with you the closest thing you can find to a pre-school child. (A full-grown goat is an excellent choice). If you intend to have more than one child, then definitely take more than one goat. Buy your week's groceries without letting the goats out of your sight. Pay for everything the goat eats or destroys.

Until you can easily accomplish this, do not even contemplate having children.

Lesson 8
1. Hollow out a melon.
2. Make a small hole in the side.
3. Suspend it from the ceiling and swing it from side to side.
4. Now get a bowl of soggy Cheerios and attempt to spoon them into the swaying melon by pretending to be an airplane.
5. Continue until half the Cheerios are gone.
6. Tip half into your lap. The other half, just throw up in the air.

You are now ready to feed a nine- month-old baby.

Lesson 9
Learn the names of every character from Sesame Street , Dora/Diego, Disney, Bubble Guppies and Yo Gabba Gabba. Watch nothing else on TV but PBS, the Disney channel, Noggin, Sprout or Nick Jr for at least five years. (I know, you're thinking What's 'Noggin' or 'Sprout'?) Exactly the point.

Lesson 10
Make a recording of Fran Drescher saying 'mommy' repeatedly. (Important: no more than a four second delay between each 'mommy'; occasional crescendo to the level of a supersonic jet is required). Play this tape in your car everywhere you go for the next four years. You are now ready to take a long trip with a toddler.

Lesson 11
Start talking to an adult of your choice. Have someone else continually tug on your skirt hem, shirt- sleeve, or elbow while playing the 'mommy' tape made from Lesson 10 above. You are now ready to have a conversation with an adult while there is a child in the room.

Reset button for your life - myth or reality?

Have you ever watched a movie and wonder, could that work in the real world?  Or could that just work in the made up world of movies where it is an ideal situation and all of the circumstances line up perfectly with no problems at all?

For example, you see that people in movies or tv show look for a 'fresh start' or have a 'moral makeover'.  Could that happen with no such issues in reality?  I'm not so sure.  You never see these people having issue paying their bills or problems searching for work in the process of the 'makeover'. 

Some people really do need a 'makeover' of sorts but not for some it would be literally impossible with out making matter extremely bad for them in the process. 

I can say a long time ago I was able to accomplish a minor 'fresh start' process, but at the time I was much younger and single and had minimal bills to pay.  But now, NO WAY.  I have too many responsibilities to take care of and kids to look in the best interest for and a household to keep together.  Not saying I need one right now, I certainly don't.  But if the need came up for one at this moment in my life that would be impossible.

For some a 'fresh start' could mean moving to a completely new city/state with new jobs, etc. Other the 'makeover' could mean trying a new faith or re-finding your faith.  The possibilities are rather endless.  But these so called complete "RESET" that you see in the movies, personally I think they are a myth.  But small steps that lead to a larger result over time is completely possible.

Have you ever considered this for yourself?  Or are you currently trying one?  Or was one put upon you unexpectedly (because that is possible as well)?

Internet support vs physical support

One interesting thing that the internet allows is the fact to reach out to others far away.  Support from others (I especially have found) is very important to make it through rough times in life. 

To be honest nothing can ever replace the true therapy of one-on-one support and contact, especially in very emotional times.  But....  the internet REALLY helps.  Kind words and the knowledge that others are on your side is awesome.

I am a member of a small handful of message boards/groups and as a result I have made so many amazing friendships.  I cannot express how truly grateful and thankful I am to have met all of those people and have them as part of my life.

I hope that everyone has that fortune to find some place (either a group or a message board) that can support you in time of need or joy.  It's important if you do not have the ability to see others on a regular basis.  Don't be afraid or too shy to reach out. 

Caps Hockey back in full swing

I cannot tell you how relieved I am that hockey season is back.  The regular season doesn't begin for a few more weeks but just the fact that pre-season has begun makes me so happy.

I really enjoy looking through the schedule and deciding which games we are going to go to and also deciding which games to take the kiddos too.  I can't wait to take them back again.  Cam just LOVES putting on her 'hockey shirt' (her jersey).  We had to purchase a new one for little Bubba because he's so big now he grew out of his old one. 

I know a lot of people don't like hockey or really don't know much about it.  To be honest it's a VERY boring sport to watch on television (especially if you don't know much about it).  It is one of those sports where you need to be there to get a feel of it first and THEN it is more appreciated when you watch it on TV.  But it is certainly one of those 'you have to be there' kind of sports.

As a family we are very passionate about hockey and I hope there is something in your world that you are just as passionate about.  I find it important to have something like that in your life, no matter what it is. Sports, hobbies, etc.  Have you asked yourself lately what YOU are passionate about?

WTF, Facebook!?!

I'm not one to usually complain about changes, especially on a social media website. BUT....


WTF, Facebook!?!?!?!

These changes are so obsurd.  Literally almost every friend I have has or has had this morning a status displaying their DISLIKE of the new changes.

The ticker is kind of cool (I will admit) but these 'blue boxes' thing and selecting for us if they think we should only get certain types of updates from people??  Yeah, that's what I said.  If you move your cursor to the right side of the comment/status box you'll see some selections and concerning updates for an individual(s) are the following: All Updates, Some Updates, Important.  How in the heck do you classify "some" updates versus "important"????  This just really stinks.

I don't have time to go through each an every person I talk to and take the time to make priority lists and status criteria for EVERYONE.  This is becoming too much.  I got on here to stay in touch with my friends and not have to think about it.

Now we have to work and organize just to see the status of people that are important to us and even then we are not 100% sure if it is the most up to date/time status.

Rant done, for now.

One is just like the other

A lot of people are under the impression that guys and girls do not act the same.  That could not be farther from the truth.  I'm speaking of course from a grown up stand point.

With guys there is usually a lot of curse words and belittling to show their manly affection for one another and with girls it's some of the time a lot of hugging and giggling.  But I've noticed lately a lot more 'man hugging' with guys especially in greeting and with ladies just as much of cursing and belittling (in backhanded ways, which usually gets a good laugh).

Stereotypes put girls and guys at total opposites, which in some cases is TOTALLY true.  However, in current society  in social situations or just one-on-one interaction that could not be further from the truth.

Have you ever noticed this?  I'm noticing now, I'm guessing because I'm a parent of two little ones and I'm paying so much more attention to their changing social skills.  Each day is something new at our house.  Kids sure say the darndest things.  Also, be careful what you say because there are tape recorders (little toddlers) everywhere.

For a smile...this always does it for me

New Kia Commercial to LMFAO Song "Party Rock Anthem"

Venting of energy

It certainly is interesting now when you get older how you handle different situations.

For example, when you get angry and are completely mad that you feel you are going to blow up.  What do you do?

When you are upset and so sad that you are just going to lose it.  What do you do?

I have found that my fuse for things, or the threshold to where I feel I'm going to explode or lose it has grown significantly (on most days).  However when it comes to things involving my children the fuse is not there and I have to react in the moment (which can be very awkward).

Taking a breath if you can, always seems to help release some of the original tension in a situation.... but haven't you found that sometimes holding your breath makes you feel more in control (or something to that affect) and if you release it the situation wins a little more??

My personal reaction to BOTH anger and sadness is crying.  Yep, crying (not all out bawling, but usually tearing up and such).  That is truly the safest way to release energy (for me) because I cannot lose it and hit/throw things.  I don't have the ability to leave the house and go to the gym like I used to (I'm also injured so that doesn't help either).  Sometimes talking things out...doesn't help and makes it worse (on certain occasions) because it is like adding fuel to the fire.

Another thing I have noticed that I do when upset on any level, if I do not cry/tear up I start cleaning.  Yep, cleaning.  It's a form of physical labor that can release some tension.   I find myself usually in the kitchen scrubbing things down or re-arranging stuff in the cabinets.

Do you have any habits that help you in a severe emotional fluctuation?  Even if you have kids or you don't we all seem to make it to this point some how.  What do you do?  Please share. 

Frustration with indecision

At some point I'm sure that all of us have dealt with the frustration of indecision or decisiveness.

I deal with it EVERY day.  I'm usually the decision maker at work where this is concerned and the worst topic where this is a problem is LUNCH.  Where to go or order from for lunch.  We've gone to such lengths as to even create a jar with places we like to go and types of food to order and pick from it when NO one has any idea what they want.

Then the process starts ALL over again at home, it's an all day thing if it is on the weekend.  Down to what are the kids going to wear, what to fix the kids for their meals what are we (the adults) going to eat?  What to do for activities?  Leaving the house?  Staying home?  Going to the store or order online? 

I know that all of this is really tiny on the larger scheme of things but when it happens all the time, it's hard to not think about it. 

Has this ever happened to you?  Do you get frustrated by things like this?

Sometimes I'm so relieved when other make those decisions for me.  But I'm sure just like everyone else my brain is tired and I'm so overly exhausted that the mindless things are so great.  We are currently considering structured meal planning at home (to help with this) especially since little H is now almost completely switched over to solids.  He's only got 8 teeth so some foods are still rather difficult.

In a bubble, but aren't we all?

With everything that happens in our lives and as we look around us, we all have a tendency to literally believe that the world revolves around "you" or "us" or however you put it. And when others interrupt, impede or change the plans of what any of us have set in motion, chaos occurs (at any level).

Driving down the road I notice..some on their phones (with some talking rather intensely others just relaxed and laughing), some talking to their kid(s) in the backseat, some having a great time singing to their radios and others just sitting quietly (as I was at the time I was looking around). Our universe(s) are inside our vehicles, homes, workplaces, etc.

I witness frustration at those who are at their doctors offices and are upset with the people behind the desk (either answering phones or helping with paperwork) because something done is not to their satisfaction (usually about appointments or waiting time). And how the person just trying to help is being beat down by someone who is figuratively saying 'how dare you interrupt my plan of how I want my world to be' or 'how dare you make me wait'. These kinds of things puts a LOT into perspective for me. I'm totally trying not to be one of those people, anymore. It's not their fault, they are just doing their job too.

Things happen that do in fact effect our world and put our original plans that were in motion, out of sync for a while. But eventually things go right back to normal (or our type of normalcy). It certainly is not an easy thing to try and realize all of this all of the time, emotions do get in the way and complicate things.

My particular bubble, now a days is rather fragile and constantly flexible. With kids it certainly has to be that way. But because I have kids that bubble is protected and much stronger than ever because I'm now in the roll of 'mama bear'. My family is everything to me and that is what MY Bubble is around.

Ten Years ago...

With September 11, 2001 now 10 years behind us all...do you remember that day? Did you promise yourself anything? Did you promise you'd do more for your family, with your family or friends? Did you promise ANYTHING to/for anyone or anything??

Well....have any of you kept any of those promises?

I know I at least kept one. To be true to myself and not hold back on how I feel, because you never know when it will be the last time you see or communicate with someone. Life is truly too short.


What about you? Have you thought of that?

I know I made many other promises, but they were based on the situation I was in at the time. Therefore, those are NULL and VOID!

My life in comparison to 10 years ago are literally night and day. I'm married to a man I'm looking forward to growing old with and we have a home and two beautiful children. I never thought I'd make it here. So glad I found my way.

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